The other day, I gave someone the power to upset me. I was fully aware that my getting upset made no sense beause this person did not even know me but yet I still could not deny that I let his words hurt me. I was feeling a little bummed as I walked to the Monday Buddhist meditation lecture, but I almost knew that he would say something, even if it was a little something…that would make me feel better. Kind of like how he did with my “micky” situation last week.(who is still terrorizing me by the way!!)
Anyway, the teacher put a name to something I knew existed but could not identify by definition but I always felt was the case when a person acted this way. What I am referring to is deluded pride versus wisdom pride.
Wisdom pride, as I understand it…is pride based on wisdom. For example, I know not to do certain things and may give you advice, not because I know it all but because I have done something similiar and learned from my mistakes, and would if possible, like to spare you the hurt, pain, dissapointment associated with this action. You should feel a sense of pride when you have accomplished something fully knowing that you have done your very best. Wisdom pride has the best intentions.
The quote I have included below explains deluded pride very well.
‘I got this today,’ they say ‘tomorrow I shall get that. This wealth is mine, and that will be mine too. I have destroyed my enemies. I shall destroy others too Am I not like God I enjoy what I want. I am successful. I am powerful. I am happy. I am rich and well-born. Who is equal to me I will perform sacrifices and give gifts, and rejoice in my own generosity.’ This is how they go on, deluded by ignorance. Bound by their greed and entangled in a web of delusion, whirled about by a fragmented mind, they fall into a dark hell. Self-important, obstinate, swept away by the pride of wealth, they ostentatiously perform sacrifices without any regard for their purpose. Egotistical, violent, arrogant, lustful, angry, envious of everyone, they abuse my presence within their own bodies and in the bodies of others. – Bhagavad-Gita
I love this quote..Needless to say, I walked out of that evening from the center with a little smile on my face. xo