Thinking back… I don’t know that I had enough nights where I just sat in bed and did absolutely nothing and felt no guilt or worry about it. I don’t recall having many weekends when I felt no pressure to be doing something else or to be somewhere other than where I was.
All irrational and insatiable goals that were destined to keep me in craving mode. Setting me up to climb a ladder to reach a goal but when you look closely, the ladder is built with no end. Therefore, the goal is unattainable. Why couldn’t I be ok with simply being.
Your mind has a wonderful way of allowing you to forget the scenario but not allowing you to forget the feeling. So, one moment you may be going about your daily life and suddenly this feeling will come over you and somehow you understand what it’s trying to tell you. It’s sort of a mental reflection of your younger self struggling with something and it is serving as an alert, that if you are not careful, you can quite easily fall back into an old habit.
For me, the lesson is to be ok in this moment. Be patient with yourself. Be patient with your husband. Be ok with not knowing it all and most importantly, receive these lessons that come your way because it is your own wise self trying to help you. xo
Photos above are from an older shoot with the beautiful and ridiculously photogenic, Lauren Prince.