Just like the emotions of falling in love, the sense of spiritual transformation can feel quite new and scary each time you experience it. Falling in love and spiritual transformation can happen as many times as we seek them, as long as we are open to it.
However, what I find most fascinating is that when we embark on a new path, we tend to forget how hard it is to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and to accept the blessings we seek. We panic and think we can’t do this, this isn’t for us, we tend to throw the towel in too soon. Sometimes, it’s easier to stay miserable then to try for something.
Love and Transformation
I feel sick. Physically sick but not from any food that didn’t agree with me. It’s a sick that I can’t take tums for. I’m paranoid from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep; just waiting for someone to pull the rug up from under me and this temporary feeling that I actually deserve something wonderful will be ripped from me. I constantly second guess myself and what it is that I am seeking. I’m confused, lonely and the most random things can spiral me out of control or bring me to tears. I have moments of weakness and make bad choices.
The Buddhist Nun Pema Chodron would say that our hardest struggles are the signs that you are transforming because living in stagnation takes no effort. Sound familiar? Welcome to the feeling of falling in love or personal transformation. It’s certainly not easy but it’s definitely personally rewarding.
Fake it until you make it.
Who hasn’t heard this saying. It’s similar to the line, “Dress for the position you want, not the position your in”. The understanding is that if we surround ourselves with the same wisdom we have, there is no inspiration to grow, we get comfortable. But if we seek wisdom via any medium; people, books, therapy, podcasts, etc, we expose ourselves to growth.
In the literal sense, the word fake means inauthentic but in this context, I would say that it means pushing through the uncomfortable parts and not giving up at the first sign of fear or challenge. It means that you practice it before you believe it. You read about it before you understand it. You trust. You sleep on it. You try not to panic. You allow yourself to be open. All of this is ok and necessary because it means you are one step closer to whatever it is you seek.
Sometimes we don’t allow ourselves to be vulnerable enough to allow something wonderful to happen. We must learn to relinquish control, to lose ego and to not be so stuck to stories embedded in us long ago. The roots of these stories are old and it’s time to plant new seeds. I love this quote from the movie, Eat Pray Love, “To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.” You must be ok with moments of unease and discomfort. Trust that they will pass.
So, in light of the New Year coming upon us, I ask that you be open to transformation, whether it be love, adventure, or a spiritual path that will help you and encourage a healthier mind, body and soul. I strongly encourage you to push through. Practice, practice, practice and push through. Surround yourself with those who have excelled at this, you will need all the support you can get! XO
Photos are from a photography yoga session with Lauren Prince, local friend and yogi on St. Simons Island, Ga.