Why sappy lyrics move me….

Anyone who knows me, will probably attest to the fact that a song will come into my head and I will sing it and play it until you either love it as much as I do, or hate it ferociously.  I am positive that I made my friend Melanie hate the cd Monster Ballads 1999 because I played it every time we took a ride in my truck the summer we worked together as camp counselors.  Leaving the camp was our escape, however for poor Melanie, there was a  rite of passage each time she entered my car and we left those gates. I also exhausted the highly addictive More Than Words track by Extreme because I was desperately trying to learn how to play it on my new guitar.  Poor Melanie again 🙁SONY DSC

Either way, I’m a total lyric and harmony person and I love ballads. Some people hate ballads because they tend to be sad but I feel the opposite way when I hear ballads. SONY DSC SONY DSC SONY DSC

Ballads remind you that you’re not alone.  They are the words that keep you company when you feel ashamed to admit what you’re feeling around others. You feel like crap, sometimes you know what you’re feeling makes no sense, but you feel it and you don’t want to appear weak.  Ballads have a way of pulling the emotion out of you and spelling it out in words, so that you can finally release the pain.

I remember the comforting feeling that I felt when I heard the song Cry, by Faith Hill.

…. Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you’re feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I ‘m wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

When I heard these lyrics, I thought, yes…yes, .. I need him to cry a little, lie,..just something to tell me that what I thought we had wasn’t an illusion. Please give me a sign that tells me he feels some pain too. Only then, for some strange reason could all this be tolerable.SONY DSC SONY DSC

and sometimes, it’s just a lyric, one line in the song that gets to you. Ahem…for example, I just love that song by Bon Jovi, Thank you for Loving Me, and it’s probably that one line that gets to me but I find myself singing this verse a lot.

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

It’s something that you hope one day, you get to say to someone. Not that you should be grateful that someone finally loved a sappy soul like you, but because it’s just a beautiful thing to humbly say to someone,…that you think so highly of them, and that you are so appreciative that you get to hang with them.  I won’t even get into my serious Sarah Mclachlan phase or coming into my sexy self, John Mayer phase.  Songs kind of carry you through a portion of your life, they motivate you when you need that “power song” as my ipod calls it when I’m trying to get through my last mile.  It helps you fall asleep sometimes.  Keeps you company on a bumpy plane ride or boring train ride.  Young gals are so lucky to have Taylor Swift these days, because I certainly would have rocked out or cried to a few of her tunes way back when.  Music rocks!SONY DSC SONY DSC
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So, fast forward to my obsession this month.  This song by the Irish Rock Pop band, The Script, called  It’s Not Right For You.  It makes me want to hold a “boom box” up in the air and blast this, for me, for you, for everyone to hear!  and in this case, it’s the entire song that I connect with, rather than one line, or a verse.

My head, my head is full of things I should’ve done
My heart, my heart is heavy, here it sinks like a stone
She said, is this the life you’ve been dreaming of
Spinning half through the way from the things you love

It’s not too late, to do something new
She said, it’s not enough trying to live your life
But not following your dreams makes you dead inside
If you don’t love what you do

It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you even have to think about it
It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you really have to think about it
You got one life, got much to do

My hands, my hands are scarred by things I should’ve done
My feet, my feet are weary from all the miles that I’ve run
She said, open your mind take a look within

Are you happy with the world that you’re living in

If not, you gotta change what you do
She said, and lately I don’t see you smiling love
Are you happy here with me and the things we’ve got
If you can’t say that it’s true

It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you even have to think about it
It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you really have to think about it
You got one life, got much to do

If we don’t do something now then
We’ll never know
If we stay here too long then we’ll, we’ll never grown old
So before it’s too late and it’s killing you yeah
We’ve only one life to live
So love what you do

It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you even have to think about it
It’s not right, it’s not right for you
If you really have to think about it
You got one life, got much to do

I’m sure if you think about it, there is that special song that when you hear it, takes you to another place, another moment.    Images in this pictorial are of a day trip to Savannah, GA.  If you haven’t been, you must go check it out. There is a lot of rich history there and the streets are lined with tons of beautiful colonial homes.  Definitely wear comfy shoes though, because you will be walking a lot! xo

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It’s in those moments of peace, that we find clarity.

The other day, while I lay down on my comfy bed, as it does on most nights, my mind began to wander.  Sometimes the wandering is not a good wander, a consequence of perhaps eating too late, too heavy or indulging on too much wine.  But, sometimes my mind is still and in these still moments, I get a bit of clarity that I didn’t realize I needed.SONY DSC

I don’t necessarily think that these resolutions are obvious at first, it’s when you are lucky enough to have remembered them the next morning, that they become apparent.SONY DSC

Personally for me, my life has changed a lot in the last 6 months. Less then a year ago, I was still signing single on applications and was completely independent, selfish, frivolous and working a super intense New York City job.  There are and will always be some aspects of that, that I will love, but there are certainly many aspects of that, that I do not miss.SONY DSC

Saying good bye to your single life is kind of a tricky thing when you are older,..in a sense this is something you have kind of looked forward to your whole life, yet when it comes, it requires you to change and compromise and that is something your independent, selfish, single for most of your life persona, resists and can find very offensive.SONY DSC SONY DSC

I believe it’s during this time of change, that it’s super important to have those moments of peace and stillness because that is when you can receive the  most clarity.  I think everyone has fears that culminated from a prior experience and those experiences come to haunt you when there is a chance for you to finally be happy.SONY DSC SONY DSC

Going back to my moment of clarity the other night… I had sort of a foggy memory of a scenario with someone I cared for deeply many years ago.  I remember being in a park and waiting.. feeling uncertain as to whether he would return to meet me.  I remember thinking how awful it would be if he abandoned me, if he didn’t return.SONY DSC

It’s so interesting how something like this can have an emotional affect on you, years later.  Then all of a sudden, it made sense.  My subconscious is trying to tell me something.  If I don’t trust and believe that I deserve what is in front of me, who will?  Developing healthy and loving feelings about ourselves is so important to succeed in life.SONY DSC

We protect ourselves, put guards up, create walls and barriers because we don’t want to get hurt.  It’s a way of protecting ourselves but it’s also self sabotage.  So, find those moments of peace, so that you can get clarity to help you appreciate, enjoy and honor what is around you.  I am the happiest I have ever been and that little bit of clarity is what I needed to remind me of that. 🙂

Images above are of my mini photo shoot for my “Thank You” note cards.

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